Hi,
I'm married to a lovely girl and its not even a year since marriage. It was an arranged marriage but I was romantically involved with her before marriage. But soon after marriage I realized I wasn't interested in s*x and/or I had erectile dysfunction. My wife was not putting any pressure on me but I went to several doctors to assess the issue.
Some doctors told I had erectile dysfunction and I had medicines but they didnt help while others said I'm as*xual. So I was very disappointed and felt really guilty that I broke all her dreams. So once I suggested my wife why don't we annul this marriage, but she became emotional and said never should I say such things. Whenever I bring up this topic, she just shuts me off and/or cries.
But for me, it is depressing to keep her at this state. Hoping time would heal everything and make her forget me, I want to go for divorce. I know she wouldn't approve. So I was thinking that I would apply for divorce without her knowledge and just run away to some other place in India and work. I know I'm making a mess of it but I feel the more the delay, it is worse for her and me, so I should leave soon.
What are the options for this? Please suggest. Thanks a lot in advance!