Hello kavita... Ur hubby is the dumbest human on this earth if he cannot satisfy you physically and he has all possible doubts on u... He shud understnd its a human tendency if ur spouse or hubby cannot satisfy you mentally n physically, the person will indeed hunt for their pleasure... And secondly, ur hubby is self centered so no doubts he will ask to sleep with you only when he is good mood... Now that its been 20 years of marriage, such people wont pay heed to their wives.
my question to you kavita :-
how much do u luv ur bf ?
are you willing to do anything for ur bf ?
for you, i guess love is blind and you have not done anything wrong.
but if you really love ur bf then you shud not ask alimony frm ur hubby even if you are unemployeed.
you do not have any evidence for dissolution of marriage but i think you should start telling your husband about your bf. do not reveal he is ur bf. tell him he is ur good friend and let him come over to your place often. Naturally ur hubby would get hyper but dont pay heed to him.... If he hit you then heres your first evidence for divorce.
ur hubby will someday understand and will give up and give you divorce for sure. I hope you remember mirinda punchline JOR KA JHATKA DHEERE SE LAGE....