After 4 years of our marriage, my wife recently disclosed to me that for past 5 years (we lived in for 2 years) she was actually thinking about someone else with whom she had an emotional and physical relationship. She never thought about me. And because of that, she never care about my actions. She is telling that as she realized this recently, she would like to start our relationship seriously and want me to stay with her.
For 5 years, she never accepted my feelings for her, she always used fight me with for everything I did, or whatever I did. Because of both of our stupidity, there are no se*xua* relation between us for past 3 years, or you can since our marriage. I will explain that reason bellow. She questioned my father's intention who is 75 now and due to his age, he normally forget to lock the bathroom door almost every time at night only. She knows that my mother is suffering from Parkinson, still she fight with me that my mother is doing this willingly.
Due to all kind of mental harassment she did to me, still I was ready to undergo circumcision operation pretty soon, but the new revelation by her, forced me to think about the last option that is divorce.
I would like to know my options here. NOTE: I have the Facebook chats and IM conversation saved with me where she accepted that she is not a wife material and she can never raise her own kinds. She also accepted there that she indeed never thought of me for first 5 years and was never in love with me. Those chats can also prove that I clearly told about my way of life, how I intend to live and my parents health issues before I moved in with her and before marriage and not for few times, but multiple time. Not for a single time, she objected to those points.
Reason for no physical relation
When we came back from home after our marriage, due to an infection, I had to go for circumcision. Doctor told me to get admitted on Friday and that I had to stay only for 2 days at max. I requested my wife to take one day off from her office. She told “ I can’t take any more day off, not even on medical grounds, and you do not have any idea how my company works.” Listening to that, I suggested her that I may request one of very close friends to stay with me for one day. She then told “In that case you are not thinking about me and you are not giving me my rights.” I was disheartened, and decided also told her that until she approach when she is ready to take a day leave, I will not go for operation. She never came to me with that day and my ego took over. Till now she don’t understand what foolish thing we did and blame me for everything.
To inform that although we both are aware of each other past, but as I followed in with complete trust, just because I want divorce, I would like to bring her character issue here. Although she was divorcee and she fled from her home to get married that time, although I know that she had physical relations with 6-7 different guys and many one night stand offs, still I don’t want to divulge any of those in to the open. I just can’t live with her any more and want divorce from her. And I am not sure whether she will give me mutual divorce or not.
Also, my mental situation is like that, I am ready to go to jail for contempt of the court, if I can’t get divorce. But I will not stay with her and I will not pay a single paisa as alimony to her. I better live my life behind jail than giving her alimony who never accepted me as a husband and 5 years of marriage she wants to start afresh.
Tapas Das
Syste